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2002-03-10 - 4:38 p.m.
Do
Security Guards Make
You Feel
Secure?
I
wonder if you feel
like I do. Every
store in America now
has some security
guard stationed at
the front door. Who
can blame them?
Recently at our
holistic food store,
a manager and 2
employees were shot
for change in a
charity box. Don't
get me wrong, I am
sure that stores are
much safer with any
ding dong in a badge
sitting on a stool
near the front. Even
at the Emergency
Room the other day
(another story) and
no medical staff
could be found, I
asked the
90-year-old
toothless
half-asleep guard
where I should go.
Not only did he tell
me where to go and
what to sign, he
even pointed in the
general direction. However,
when I spy one of
these guards, I get
nervous. Obviously
they are sizing me
up. When I leave the
store, it is even
worse. In my mind, a
host of questions
must come up in
their minds:
"did she steal
something and hide
it in her
purse?"
"she doesn't
look like a criminal
- but you can never
be too sure."
"she looks
nervous, she must be
up to
something."
Lately, I've been
trying to figure out
how to deal with my
paranoia. Do I look
him straight in the
eye letting him know
I have nothing to
fear? Or, do I
glance and a small
smile and try to
look innocent as a
lamb? To I continue
talking with my
associates as if I
don't notice him?
How are these
attempts interpreted?
Even if I were
stopped and asked to
be searched - even
though I have done
nothing wrong - do I
refuse and ask to
phone my attorney?
Or, fuck it - look
in there you
schmuck, you are an
idiot? The
other day, I was
carrying illegal
contraband into
several stores. For
some reason, I
wasn't nervous. I
felt as if the
security guards had
a right to size me
up, question my
intentions and even
stop me. Of course,
then I would call my
lawyer friends who
often carry illegal
contraband
themselves. It's
an odd dilemma to
feel guilty while
innocent and
innocent while guilty.
Does anyone else
feel this way?
Please email me.
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